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I was just there, wondering, tryin' to figure out something, but I was unable. I just wasn't able to put the things into perspective, and make a rational ananylisis. It was impossible. It was a feeling beyond my control, a feeling too huge, too devastating. I couldn't handle something like that. It was just too much for me, for my head, you know. My brain seems so weak when those thoughts get inside of me. How can I manage that? How can I make them disappear?

I felt so tiny, so small, so vulnerable that all I wanted was stay in bed, and cry over and over again. But you can't do that. The world is waiting. You can't waste your time hiding. You have to face the reality, sooner or later. There's no other way.